These are the times when being a mom feels so hard.
My kids haven’t been sleeping great. I can’t seem to get my toddler on a consistent sleep schedule, and my nine-month old daughter, who normally sleeps pretty good in her crib, must be going through a sleep regression or growth spurt because she screams bloody murder any time I lay her down anywhere but on me.
Today, I thought, I will get things back on track. At 1:00 both kids were tired, so I suggested going and laying down. To my delight and surprise, my toddler said, “Okay, mama”.
We lay down all together and after mere minutes on the boob, the baby is out. Just when I am thinking of setting her in her crib, my son decides he has to go potty. The commotion wakes her up, and she is NOT happy. After I make it through 15 minutes of “Let me do it!” in the bathroom, I settle the baby back down and successfully set her in the crib. It is now 2:00.
One down, one to go. I lay down with the toddler and try to get him settled back down. We are laying quietly when he says, “Mama, will you go away?”. That’s not very nice, I think, but I agree to leave him, only to have him ask me to lay back down, then go away, then lay back down several times. It is now 2:45. I tell him I’m going downstairs and he needs to take his nap. It is already too late and I know I will have to either wake him up prematurely, causing crankiness, or let him sleep as long as he wants, causing a late bed time.
When I leave the room, he starts screaming, because it is just so unfair that I wouldn’t play the “go away, lay down” game any longer. His screaming wakes the baby up.
It is now 3:00, neither kid is asleep, and I have spent two hours doing nothing but trying to get them to sleep.
What am I doing wrong? Do other moms spend two hours a day unsuccessfully trying to get their kids to nap? These are the times when it just feels so ridiculously hard that I think I must not be doing it right. I don’t have the answers. All I can do is keep trying.